also from my draft folder

i remember
it wasn’t that long ago
really
thinking
and maybe
telling someone
that i wanted to
feel
something
involving a woman
that i was sick
of the
indifference
which i think
ruins writing
and the soul
hurting sounded
better
than the grey
you know
you do
now
there are days
when i kinda
wanna smack
that
whiny
punkass
version of me
still
sometimes
pain feels good
i cut my hand
and when i washed
dishes
the hot water
hurt
like a fucker
but in a good way
is that weird
it’s weird
probably
now
pain seems overrated
even if it makes
writing
better
i like the sound of
mellow
and relaxed
and 95%
of the time
i’ll be all awesome
and supportive
and the other 5%
you’ll rub my noggin
and turn on sports
and ask if
that helps
and i’ll say that
a lower cut shirt
might help
heal my pain
and that i don’t make
the rules
it’s just how
pain works
lady
forrealsies
come on

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4 Responses

  1. Sue says:

    *laugh* I loved the ending!

  2. Alexia says:

    Did you miss me?
    Where have I been? In hospital for eleven days.
    Why? I dressed up like a sheep and then set myself on fire. Accidentally, of course. I did it so well that I gave myself second degree burns all over my torso, and third degree ones on my arms. At least I can use my left hand now though; I’m going to train myself to be ambidextrous- awesome much?

    Shit, even my tragedies are ridiculous and hilarious.

    So, how are YOU?

  3. Wendryn says:

    a lower cut shirt
    might help
    heal my pain

    Completely awesome. And generally true. :P Made me laugh.

  4. Heather Rose says:

    Sometimes I feel like my husband is just too ridiculous for words, and needs a beating. Then you go and repeat something he’s said to me. I figure if he’s not alone, then it must just be the testosterone and I can’t really blame him for that.

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